1. Remember my stuffs? Time for all to be revealed!
2. Stuff #1: Since late October, I have been actively looking for a new job. I had reached a breaking point at my current job for reasons that would fill a novel–actually, I had reached my breaking point at my current job around October of 2014, but then a coworker of mine quit, leaving me really with no choice but to stay with the company. So I stuck it out until I couldn’t stick it out any longer, and started applying for everything and anything relevant. In total, I applied for over 100 jobs. It was discouraging, it was disheartening, and it was one of the most stressful things I’ve ever gone through. I have never before in my life felt so wholly rejected, over and over and over again, and it led me to question everything about my professional life up to this point: my current career, my past experience, my choice of a college major. In late January, I had an interview with a company and left feeling better than I had ever felt after an interview up to that point. I was positive I’d get the job…and then I didn’t.
3. Stuff #2: Since early September, I’ve been dating someone. I may or may not have conveniently chosen to leave him out of my Adventures in Online Dating post about Match. Sorry not sorry. When I said last year that any and all future boyfriends were staying off the blog, I meant it, and I still mean it. When/if I get engaged, I’ll be sure to blindside all of you, but until then, I feel more comfortable keeping my relationships private while they are active. Well, two days after I was rejected from that job I was sure I was going to get, my boyfriend and I had A Talk, which basically boiled down to him no longer being sure if he could continue with the relationship. He has an extremely busy professional life that always put a bit of a strain on our relationship, due to his stress level and busyness level. We made it work, but it was quite unlike most relationships I’ve seen, to say the least. I very much liked this boy, and was willing to move heaven and earth to maintain this relationship.
4. Throughout the month of February, our relationship sputtered on. Then, last Saturday, we broke up. Ish. (For those of you keeping close tabs on my life: yes, my ex-boyfriend from last year broke up with me on March 4, 2015. My now-ex-sort-of-boyfriend from this year broke up with me on March 5, 2016. If anyone needs me on March 6, 2017, I plan to be on a remote island in the Pacific, completely unreachable by any other human, because damn it, I am not being dumped on the first weekend of March three years in a row!) The Spark Notes version of our breakup was that he still cares about me, and I still care about him, but he doesn’t feel like he has the ability to give me the attention I deserve in a relationship due to his work circumstances. I don’t know if you’ve ever broken up with someone when neither party really wanted to break up, but let me tell you, it is not fun. My breakup last year wasn’t fun, either, but it’s much easier to go through something like that and be like, “Hey, my ex-boyfriend was actually just an asshole who couldn’t appreciate me for who I am as a person. Good riddance!” rather than something like this and be like, “Gosh, we both still really care about this a lot, but situations completely out of our control are keeping us from being together. That’s…just about as shitty as it gets.”
5. Last weekend started, however, with a third-round interview at a company I had fallen head over heels in love with. It was quite apparent to me that the person who would be my boss thought I was fantastic, based on my second-round and third-round interview experiences, but I had to impress HR and a VP as well. On Monday afternoon, I got a call from the person who would be my boss, offering me the job, and I accepted it. I have two weeks left in my current position, and will begin my new role on March 28. (As a side note, that will obviously impact my blogging a bit. Lately, I’ve been more inclined to create blog posts on the weekends, so my new job won’t affect that, but I imagine my blog reading will decrease for awhile until I’ve settled into my new job and figured out how all of that will work.) I’m absolutely thrilled for my new job, but I’m also heartbroken over leaving my current position. Ultimately, I know that this is the best career decision for me, but I will desperately miss my current industry, which I’ve very much enjoyed being a part of. My new position is in a completely different industry (still in Chicago, though), and while I’ll be doing very similar work to what I’ve been doing in the past, the context will be totally different.
6. So, those are my stuffs, which have now reached their conclusion, oddly enough with in the space of two and a half days. It has been an absolute emotional rollercoaster of a week, and I honestly have no idea how I’m feeling about anything. I alternate between being giddily happy and sobbing, so if I had to summarize myself these days, “a complete mess” would be the phrase I’d use. Life is awfully weird sometimes.