Kick The Habit: Unexpected Outcome

Here we are on day five of my month of kicking my OCD tendencies as part of Freely Be’s Kick The Habit campaign. Since we’re at the end of the work week, I thought I’d do a little recap on my first weekish of doing this.

Monday went really well. I allowed myself to make decisions rather than letting my OCD tendencies dictate a lot of what I did. While Kick The Habit was constantly on my mind throughout the week, in reflecting over what I’ve done this week I realized I missed some pretty big opportunities to kick some OCD habits of mine. I have a ritual at work every morning that I’ve been doing the same way for quite some time now. Even though I’ve thought about changing, the two mornings I recall mixing things up were followed by afternoon thunderstorms. The logical part of me knows there is no correlation between these two things, but it’s a pretty tough thing for me to overcome. I honestly didn’t realize this until I started thinking back on what I’ve done this week, so that is something I’m definitely going to work on next week.

Last night, something surprising happened. I was defrosting a sandwich thin for my sandwich for lunch today (I freeze all my bread products, so I have to pop things like bagels and sandwich thins in the microwave before making a sandwich to break the halves apart) when I remembered that I had pita bread. I don’t often have pita bread and got it with the intention of mixing my standard lunch up as part of kicking my OCD habits. I had already defrosted my sandwich thin, so I had a baby dilemma: put the defrosted thin back in the freezer and have the pita, or have the exact same sandwich I’ve been having every day since…a long time. January or so, probably. While thinking about what to do, I realized that I wanted the sandwich thin, not pita bread. I think sandwich thins are seriously the best thing since sliced bread–they don’t squish like bread on pre-made sandwiches does, they fill me up really well, and they taste fantastic. What’s not to love? I mean, pita bread has most of those qualities, too, but I just honestly like sandwich thins a lot. Though having the pita could’ve been “kicking my OCD,” it wasn’t what I wanted to do. The whole point of kicking my OCD is to live freely. I want to have the freedom to make my own choices about these sorts of things, not feel compelled to do what I’ve always done. I’m fine with freely choosing to do something I’ve done a thousand times before. I just don’t want to do things out of compulsion. I know this whole example may sound really silly, but it was a pretty big ah-ha moment for me in this process, so I thought I would share.

Oh, my first 5K is in less than 12 hours. nbd. 🙂

Advertisements

4 thoughts on “Kick The Habit: Unexpected Outcome

  1. Pingback: Kick The Habit: Letting It Go | accidental intentions

  2. Pingback: Kick The Habit: Wrapping it Up | accidental intentions

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s